So tonight I went out to the movies with Guy E, and I realized something. I've been so caught up in Guy F that I never once really considered Guy E as a possibility. He actually does have feelings for me. He told me this. The thing is though...i'm not sure about myself. I mean he's wonderful. Don't get me wrong, he's been great thus far. I'm just not sure on how it would really work out. I mean I have been treating him like a friend. Nothing more, nothing less. I think he may want more though. Maybe not now, but eventually. I see it. The problem? I actually am dating a guy..
A guy whom I quite honestly don't think I really like. I mean he's basically perfect. I just don't think he's for me. Or maybe i'm not giving him a fair chance? I don't really know right now. I plan to give it another week or two before I totally decide. He's quite clingy. I don't like clingy. We don't need to talk every day for every hour of the day. I like my space. I really like my space. I've probably pushed him away this week. I don't like his personality all that well either. He's too old to still be in that egocentric stage in his life. He needs to learn some self-humility and humble himself. I've never seen someone so self-oriented. He does try though. He tries very hard to keep me happy. He tries to change for me, but I don't want to change him. I don't think that any relationship should make you change who you are as a person. Your significant other will accept you as you are flaws and all.
Back to Guy E. I could see him and I in a future setting. I could, but the thing is...my dumb behind still wants Guy F.Why? Only God knows...Maybe it will all change. I'm going to give everything time. Right now, though, I need to go do laundry.
Until next time...
-Signed,
Love
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