Something I Have To Do

Despite how much I really want to hate Guy F, I still need to talk to him. I know this. I'm pretty sure that the reason I can't fully and completely move on is deep rooted into our so-called "relationship". Just the thought of him makes my stomach turn though..My stomach is all "Nuh-Uh Girl, Don't go there!" All sassy like and stuff. But I can't help it. It's eating away at me. Usually I would try to pretend he doesn't exist, but I can't. He's in my dreams. He consumes my thoughts. It's like my subconscious is eating away at me to get me to talk to him or something,but I DON'T WANT TO. I want to leave that hatchet buried. Or halfway buried. Whatever. I don't want to do it, but I cannot sleep. I do not know what to do! I can't handle the rejection again. I can't. It'll be like an extra slap to the face. Eventually I will cave in and talk to him. Eventually. Then maybe I will cheer up and stop being so whiny in all my posts. (This is soooo off topic, but I really need to brighten this thing up. It's so gloomy.) Well I must be off!

Until next time...

-Signed,

Love