Hidden Desires

Every time I hear someone talking about being engaged or having their wedding soon I begin to feel this achy feeling. It's like I become nostalgic and hurt all at the same time. I'm not fairing well. It seems like with every corner I turn there is something that reminds me of him. I can go maybe a day or two without thinking about it, but then something creeps up and memories flood in. I was asked by a friend (a very mean friend who never rides my routes with me!) if I was still in love. I honestly don't know. I would like to think i'm not. I hope i'm not, because if I am that is very sad on my part. I can't be the girl who can never move on. If I don't get my head together I'm going to miss what's in front of me because I can't stop looking behind me. I'm going to try to sort my thoughts out and get some clarity while i'm at work today. Hopefully I can figure some things out.

Until next time...

-Signed,

Love