Lost In The Woods

Besides my failing, complicated love life. My social life is pretty messy as well. I have no friends it seems. My so called best friend has effectively ditched me for her "boyfriend". All of my other "friends" have things going on. So basically in five slightly vulgar words, "My life is fucked up." In a social aspect anyway. My academic life is absolutely great right now. I'm pretty sure I should get an A in my Spanish class. Yay! Go me for having a pretty good academic life!

Bleehhh, seriously though...I need to be a bit more proactive in finding a social life. I feel like i'm in this little shell all closed off from the world. I remember a time when I felt like I was in the middle of the world. I was so happy. I felt like I had a purpose in life. I don't know when it all changed. I don't even know what i'm doing anymore nor why. I feel lost.

I should be happy. I'm graduating from my college soon with two degrees: Bachelor of Science in Psychology and Bachelor of Arts in Spanish. I should feel accomplished, right? I don't. Something is missing.  I know there's more to my life. There has to be, and I don't just mean in the aspect of my love life. But there is something missing. I feel incomplete. I don't know what it is, but I just feel so incomplete. I want to find whatever piece of me is missing and put it back into place. I want to be myself again.

So now I start a new quest. Not a quest of love, but of finding myself. I must find a way to get back to me. Back to being happy and feeling like everything will be okay, because as of yet everything feels like it's crumbling. My world is a disaster. A disaster waiting to be saved.

Until next time...

-Signed,

Love