So, after the argument when I had calmed down a little bit. I tried to be nice and talk it out with him. Of course he never replied as I figured he wouldn't. I could tell during the argument that it was nothing more than a moment of nostalgia. That was the only reason he replied. He doesn't miss me. He doesn't love me. Never did. I'm okay with it now though. I'm so over it. I was afraid though, while we were arguing. I was afraid because we sounded exactly like my two best friends did before they got back together and got married. I do not want to marry that guy. No. I don't want to marry him just because we both felt a little nostalgic. There would be no real basis. No real love. While my best friends are actually in love with each other. This guy and I would not be good together. Not at all. The relationship was one-sided. A marriage would be even worse. Like a personal hell for the person that actually cares (me). Gahh, i'm so glad that I am finally able to let this whole ordeal with him go. Not that i'm not hurt or anything. For a second I was upset and hurt that he didn't bother to reply, but now i'm fine and hey, guess what- I am definitely seeing sleep in my future tonight!!!! Yeah, yeah, yeah! *Does rockstar-diva dance*
On another note: I hung out with the new guy today. He and his mom helped me with my Spanish. Although he still makes it a point to call me "Buddy". It's not like I necessarily want him anyway. He has his own issues he needs to resolve. I don't care how cute and sweet he is...He needs to get his life in order. I am mad though. You can never find a good, cute guy. Something is always wrong with them. Either they're too into themselves, they're abusive, their life is nearly in shambles, or (for the straight girls) they're gay (for the gay guys they're straight). Yeah...life sucks. Karma is a brat. Blah blah blah yaddah yaddah yahh...Okay I need to get some sleep I have an important quiz in the AM. Goodnight peoples!!!
Until next time....
-Signed,
Love
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