For example, today we were having a conversation. A really good one actually. I was enjoying it. Until one point in the conversation when he told me not to flatter myself. He was joking. I know this, but the statement made me think of all of the guys who were just literally slimy little pieces of no good creatures. I got sooo angry. Nearly every guy i've ever been with has cheated on me. Sure they told me all kinds of loving and sweet things. They gave me compliments all the time, and I made the mistake of letting it flatter me. Why was it a mistake? Because they go on to the next girl and say the exact same things. None of it is genuine. They would say/do anything and everything to make me feel special and loved, but they still did the same thing to and for other girls. They didn't mean it, and that's when I learned: It doesn't matter how pretty nor how good of a girlfriend you are, they will still cheat on you and say/do the same things to another chick. So why, after all of those bad experiences would I let ANYTHING flatter me? No. Nothing flatters me. You want me to be flattered? Say or do something and actually mean it. Don't run off to the next chick and do the same things for her.
Okay, yeah...so clearly it pushed a button. It still does. And I felt so bad for being mean to him. He's such a sweet guy, but I messed up. He did nothing to me. So taking into account my blow up I decided to ask him to just be friends with me. Apparently that's all I need. But yeah...bad day, i'm messing up any chance I even had with the guy. He probably thinks I have a million issues. Hopefully things get better...
Until next time....
-Signed,
Love
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