You know, out of all of my relationships the most difficult and the most painful break up was Guy F. It took time and it also took self will. Self will to want to get over it and move on. Self will to somewhat forgive him and accept that the relationship was over. It took even more to accept the fact that I could not fix it. Everything cannot be fixed. I was hurt like never before. It hurt me very deeply, but I got through it. The thought of it still brings me some grief at times, but I am fine. "I am fine". I had to (and sometimes I still do) tell myself that everyday. Those words kept me going. As I write this, the pain dissipates. I will always have this nagging feeling inside of me though. At least until I finally find the courage to talk to him. Let him know i'm okay and there are no hard feelings. I'm not ready yet though, but if he were to contact me first before I became ready I would talk to him...or at least try my best to find something to say to him. Well I must leave now. I'll post again later. Soo...
Until next time....
-Signed,
Love
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