What Friends?

I told you guys in my last post that I didn't have any friends. Truth is I BARELY have friends, and it's not because I am some horrible person. Let's start off generally...Virtually most of my friends are guys. Very few of them are actual true friends. Most of them have or have had a crush on me. The ones who have or have had crushes on me are the ones who never stick around for long. It usually goes along the lines of "I can't be your friend with these feelings." yadda yadda yah, bullshit. The others, which is actually only 2 (maybe 3), are my friends til the end. Even if they've had a crush on me. They are great friends. We talk pretty often, but we hardly hang out.

Now let's get to the females. I usually don't have many female friends. I've never been able to get into the whole gossip and talk about other people thing. I don't really care about what other people do or say unless it directly affects me. I've always been somewhat of a tomboy, BUT I do have this one friend. She is honestly my only best female friend. She is honestly and truly a great friend to me. No matter what we have been through she has always been there for me.

The other so called best friend I had is no more. She doesn't know what true friendship is. All she did was talk shit about me behind my back. Flirt with my boyfriend (at the time) and try to talk to him behind my back. Then she ups and leaves without a word. No thank you or anything after I let her move in with me. She left to go stay with her "boyfriend". AND to top it all off she blew off our plans that we made weeks prior for him. I'm sorry, but she needs to do better. If I ever dated an older man he would not still be living with his mom. No sir, but i'm not going to get into that. The point is she hurt me and our friendship is over. I can't do it. I can't be that person who lets so called friends treat them any kind of way.

But yes...this is why I have few and very limited friends. I try to make new friends, but that's a different story for another post. I shall return soon. The semester has started and I have tons of homework. Bleehhh.

Until next time...

-Signed,

Love