It Still Hurts

So I thought about messaging Guy F to tell him I was ready to be friends, and of course curiosity killed the cat. I went to look at his profile page. I don't know what I was thinking. I wanted to see how he was doing, but I came across something. Before looking at his profile it never occurred to me that maybe he moved on. Well the thought definitely occurred as I was looking at his profile. Gaahhhh, it hurt. It hurt more than I wanted it to. I guess i'm still not ready to be his friend although I really want to be. I guess that I just don't want to lose him completely. I still want him in my life even if it is as a friend. I still care about him. I'm hopeless.

Until next time...

-Signed,

Love