It's Official! I Have A Boyfriend =) And I Have Always Loved Him Dearly

So guess who's official!?!?! That's right, Guy E and I. I never thought it would happen again since he was so indecisive, but we're actually in a pretty good and stable relationship. I'm actually pretty happy. Things are going pretty well. We get along great. We are a normal functioning couple, and I think we may both actually be in love with each other. It is freaking amazing. Just when I was beginning to think I needed to try to find someone who actually wanted a relationship, I got him. I don't know what it is, but he's changing. He sees a future with me. He wants me in his life. I think we're building something amazing and I hope it works out for us. I love him. So much. He has always been the one constant in my life. No matter what happens we always find a way back to each other whether we're just friends or not. So it kind of makes sense...in a way lol

So...what happened?

The day I got back from Spain I went to see him. He had been whining about me leaving him for 8 weeks. He missed me badly. I made him wait until I had dinner with one of my close friends. I saw him pretty late, but I saw him. I was with him for nearly 6 hours. He was so happy to see me. He grabbed me and gave me a huge hug. And the kiss...oh the kiss...it was amazing! It was one of those "Oh my goodness I missed you so much let me eat your face!" kisses. It was pretty damn good. He just held me and wouldn't let me go. He stared at me for what seemed like forever just smiling and thinking to himself. I remember once I looked at him, and I tried to look away but he turned my face back towards him. He made sure I was looking at him directly in his eyes and he told me he loved me. I told him I loved him too, but I was shocked. He was acting weird. He was acting different and I didn't know why. A few minutes later he said he wanted to ask me something. I didn't think anything of it. I thought he wanted to know about my trip or if I would get him some water. No, instead he asked if we could be in a relationship. My mind took a complete blank. I could not even believe it. This guy whom I knew for a fact was afraid of commitment was making one to me! I guess while I was away something clicked for him. Like, he just knew that it was me. I told him yes. I was so happy, but I didn't show it. I just smiled. I actually wanted to scream and kiss him and tell him how much I loved him and had been waiting for that moment.

Later, after I got home he text me. He apologized for taking so long to realize that he wanted me. He said he still doesn't know what he wants in the future, but right now he wants me to himself and I can have him to myself. It made me so happy. like, have I told you guys how much I love this man? He doesn't have to know what he wants in the future. We can figure that out together. I know many of you may think i'm crazy for saying yes after everything that has happened with him or because he took so long. Yet to me, it shows that he put real thought and effort into his decision. It wasn't just on a whim. It lets me know that he is serious about us. Just as serious as I am. And so far everything has been going great. So, I'm happy. I hope you guys can be happy for me. Maybe I have finally made the right decision for once, and just maybe this may be the guy I marry one day. Wish me luck.

Until next time...

-Signed,

Love