Inner Battles

So I Facebook stalk myself alot, but only to look at my pictures. I am not very confident in myself. I don't feel pretty. I mean some people think i'm pretty, beautiful, gorgeous, etc. but personally, I don't feel like i'm all that. I don't think I look that great. I mean sure, I'm pretty decent, but nothing to fawn over. I really hate when people do that. I'm a regular person just like them. I guess this goes back to when I was younger and all everyone ever said about me was how pretty I was at the time. Ehh, it's complicated. You would think that with all the compliments I get I could keep a decent boyfriend. NOPE.

My inability to keep a decent boyfriend has also somewhat contributed to this. With every break-up, every rejection I always wondered if it was me. Was I not pretty enough? Was I not good enough? I always tried to figure out what was wrong with me. I figured that I had to be the problem if every guy I dated treated me the same way. Every guy always had another girl on the side. So I always thought I did something wrong. There was something about me that drove guys to treat me that way.

That's how I USED to think.

Now, now I just feel that guys make dumb decisions and my Mr. Right is still somewhere lost as am I. I hope we find each other soon.

Until next time...

-Signed,

Love